It’s been a good day. Slept in a little and got up to a goodie bag from Jimmie. Got some new exercise clothes. They made me happy. I’m a practical person. And nothing against all the people getting flowers and chocolates that’s not our thing. We went to church this morning and then had plans to spend the day in the house in PJs thanks to the weather forecast. So far nothing at our house but that didn’t stop us from spending the day inside. I’d say doing nothing but Ive worked my butt off. Made cookies, and frozen yogurt bites. Bathed and attempted to dry non-compliant dog. Done laundry, cleaned the kitchen including taking apart the stove and scrubbing all the stuff I’m sure was on there before we moved in. Tyler and Ryan are in Russellville and Austin is at his house so it’s just been us and the dogs.
Staying busy has helped. I’m trying to avoid the thoughts but they are still there in the back of my mind. We aren’t the parents that go ALL OUT for Valentine’s Day. Usually just getting the kids at home something small. Even though we never made a huge deal about this day it’s still a little sad to not have Kaleb here to give him his bag of candy and whatever little treat we got him.
We’re getting a little more accustomed to the empty nest. Getting the puppy has definitely helped fill my empty time. There is still an emptiness around the house. And extra food and rooms. There is less people to clean up after. Kaleb was not our “clean” child. He left a mess wherever he had been. Going through the boxes has been reminding me of all the “stuff” he kept that we never understood why.
So while it’s the first Valentine’s Day it hasn’t been as hard as some of the other holidays. Maybe I am starting to heal a little more or maybe if we show our love everyday the 14th of February isn’t as big a deal. Why say I love You one day a year when you can say/show it everyday. We’ve learned that over the last 5 months. You never know when the last time you will tell someone I love you. Don’t wait for a holiday.
I love you Jimmie, a little more today than I did yesterday as our love is ever growing and evolving. Everyday brings us a little closer. Thank you for being by my side and helping me get through this. Our love is never ending and can’t be measured. Not to the moon and back, or Pluto and back or loving you with all my butt (because it’s bigger than my heart). My love for you is not measurable it is a given that is there forever. Even when we are grumpy or not seeing eye to eye the love is still there giving us a reason to find a compromise or agree to disagree. I love you and may we continue our transition through love every day of the year.
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