Easter 2016

It’s been a good day. Stephanie and Tyler came to town and spent the day with us. We went to church and the grandparents houses. We’re stuffed from all the good food. We didn’t get to see Austin or Ryan today they both were doing other things but getting to spend 1/2 a day with Tyler and Stephanie is rare and special. We look forward to the wedding in less than 3 months.

I know Kaleb was with us all morning because Jimmie bought me a K pandora charm after Kaleb died. I added it to my bracelet next to his birthstone. This morning to church I wore a tunic top that has a knitted or crocheted pattern to it. All morning I spent time unhooking my bracelet from my top. Didn’t matter what I was doing the K kept getting hooked to my shirt and Jimmie had to unhook me several times because I couldn’t get some of them myself. It was like it was Kaleb’s way of saying, “Hey, I can still be a pain in your butt.” I miss him a lot but having steph and Tyler here today helped a lot.
As we continue marking the firsts off the list they are getting fewer and fewer and it really starts setting in that he’s not coming back. We are closer to the anniversary of his death than we are to the event itself. We are settling into a new routine. There are times I pull up Facebook just to go through my photo albums so I can see his big blue eyes staring back at me and wonder how can it be that he is gone. No matter how good our day is, it’s always in the back of your mind. There is always a sadness behind everything you do. Today was a good day. We spoke of Kaleb with laughs and smiles but he’s still not with us to make us laugh or get on our nerves. Happy Easter in Heaven Kaleb. We love you.